There are people whom I have been friends with for years who recently found out that I am an alien abductee. I knew how the outcome was going to go but I wanted to hold out hope for better but humanity is so predictable. I will speak the unimaginable.
This blog is more for those who know me, but others may find
something out of this. Who knows, it seems ufologists are content to remain
clueless about alien abductions.
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I’m damned if I tell you this and I’m damned if I don’t. I
am the person you loathe and despise. I am the person that doesn’t have a voice
and can never speak the unspeakable. I am what you call an “alien abductee”. I
didn’t want this and I didn’t ask for it. I am alone and marginalized.
I respect all of the hard work and dedication that all of
you have done for the field of ufology. You have dedicated a large part of your
lives to the study of the field and I respect all of your opinions and
theories. I admire all of you for what you have done over the years and I
believe you are the shining lights of the ufological field. I have learned so
much from all of you over the years and I can’t tell you how much I treasured
all of our times together and for what I have learned.
Unfortunately, ufologists do not respect for one micro-moment
the total hell that I have had to endure in my life as a so-called “alien
abductee”. Clueless debunkers, skeptics, armchair ufologists, wannabe
abductees, and the ivory tower elite of ufologists; they all dismiss the
abduction experience as a total joke. Alien abduction is a footnote in the
study of ufology. The ivory tower elite satisfy themselves that there are only
a handful of actual alien abductions that have ever happened in ufological
literature. They pat themselves on the back and bask in their knowledgeable superiority
that they are the harbingers of alien abduction truth. Oh yes, there may be
advanced civilizations visiting earth but there is no way they would be
interested in humanity. There is no way they would be abducting human beings. Of
course not! Everybody knows that!
With the exception of less than a handful of people, nobody
in ufology has ever asked me what my life has been like. Nobody. Ever. People I have known as friends for years never even took the
time to send me an email or a phone call to talk to me after they found out I
was an alien abductee. I wasn’t surprised.
Like I mentioned in a blog I wrote earlier this year, if you
mention you are an alien abductee, you become one of “those”
people. I am proved right time and time again.
I know the people who have been told I am an alien abductee will
never think of me in the same way again and it makes me very sad. I can’t help
what happened to me. It wasn’t my fault.
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Wow, that makes me very sad for you. I mean that. It can't be easy to have to endure something like that.
ReplyDeleteOn the one hand, I guess that was at least part of your intention -- and I would't say that is an illegitimate urge. OF COURSE we all want our experiences, and especially those that are painful, recognized and understood. That's human and nobody should misunderstand that urge.
But there's more in there too, and it's either a carrot or a stick -- you know more than you've said and you say you aren't telling because nobody would understand. Yet I think some people would understand. You are right that it won't be the people who are at the top of UFOlogy or any other paradigm like that. But beyond that there are a lot of people out there who have had their own experiences that they don't understand, and it's these people you really ought to be writing for. If they haven't found your blog yet, they will.
Just be careful that you don't become like those people that you properly chastise, the leaders of UFOlogy. I don't think it's accidental that they think the way they do. The various fields of paranormal enquiry are full of the most toxic narcissists you are likely to meet this side of politics. In a very real way, these paradigms are at least partly, by accident or design, machines that produce these narcissists. (And again, I don't really believe that's by accident.)
This is how your story is a bit of a carrot, you see -- we become mystified and entranced by the figure of the paranormal "other", trying to figure out just what they are up to. But that's part of the machine. That's an attempt, by the other, to produce a particular effect. To get people headed down a certain path.
Thinking from this perspective, you really do want to be careful how you present what happened to you. In fact, maybe you realize this and that's why you don't reveal everything that you know. You can do that and still talk about your experience -- someone took you against your will and did things to you without your consent, and that is horrible. Please do tell us how that has affected your life. You will be sharing experiences with many who have the same or similar troubles.
I want to honor you and sympathize with your experience, but I don't want to be part of the designs of the "other", whatever they are.
Thank you for your post. I do have to be careful what I write about for many reasons but I try to write what I can. Thank you for posting. I had to take some time off after writing this piece so I apologize for my late reply. Thank you for your comments.
DeleteUnfortunately, there are going to be people who lie and make fun of people just like you who have had an real experience with UFO'S. Unless an alien abductee can give us 100% concrete evidence or some type of info, its always gonna be "he said she said" type of arguments. There are people who would rather lie and make up absurd UFO stories just to get attention and get air time. Which only takes away from people who have honest encounters that are unexplained. I feel bad for people who can't seem to get a fair audience.
ReplyDeleteHi Ashley, Thanks very much for posting. I agree with what you have written. The real experience is getting blurred and buried by all of the inaccuracies that are written about abductions. Thanks so much for your post. I wonder about the people who don't come forward and are afraid to talk about what is going on. We are very isolated. This issue itself needs to be written more about too. Who really wants to listen?
Deletehi its monica starship from alien jigsaw. i understand about feeling shattered and despair and not being able to tell anybody.
ReplyDeleteHi Monica, I appreciate your post very much. Thank you for the support and the understanding. If people could only try to understand, but most don't even want to try.
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